My Hollywood, by Mona Simpson, sat for months in my "to read and review" pile, so long I actually can't find the email from the publicist who sent it to me. (This is embarrassing. I hope they find the review via Google Alerts. Hi!)
I ignored it for a long time because of its title, its cover, even though I know covers are rarely chosen by the author. I am one of them! Those people who judge a book by its cover. And that is so very unfortunate. Because I now want to read everything Mona Simpson ever wrote, not because I loved the novel, but because I loved the writing.

I thought it would be light and frothy, and I don't really like light or frothy. I like books and films that make me think. I like fiction to play out in such a way I ask myself how I would have done things differently, to take life lessons from imagined individuals set forth like parables to incite questions. (I am also fun at parties.)
And, whoa. This did.
I alternately loved and hated the two protagonists, Lola (the nanny) and Claire (the employer), and -- to a lesser part -- Judith, the second employer. Claire hires Lola to take care of her son, William, in the midst of her thirty-something existential crisis. Claire's a composer married to a television writer. Her life sucks. Her husband is never home. She can't find time to work. She seems completely overwhelmed with keeping food on the table and a bottle in the mouth of her son even with a live-in nanny. It's hard for me to identify with Claire, because even as a working creative mother, I've never experienced the back-up plan that is live-in help. I understand cramming in one's creativity between feedings and preschool and a full-time job, and ... I'm jaded. I don't feel sorry for Claire. And reading this book, I'm relieved I haven't had live-in help, because it seems that the female employers in it are only able to grow once they release their nannies and try life on their own.
Maybe there's a point there?
At first I loved Lola, the Filipino nanny, and thought she was above criticism. Not in a position of power, she makes decisions best for children not her own and ignores her progeny in the Phillipines in order to provide for their education. It doesn't work out.
Her first love, Williamo, forgets her by the end of the book. Her second, Laurita, ends up calling Lola out of retirement after she's returned to the Phillipines to children and grandchildren she doesn't know and husband Bong Bong's basket of rotten fruit (an affair). Lola, it turns out, places her affections oddly, or at least oddly to me, and the consequences are both touching and devastating in turn.
I loved the book 50 pages in because I was deeply impressed with Simpson's ability to bounce between two unique writing styles -- the alternating chapters voiced by Lola and Claire seem not to be written by the same author. That's hard to pull off, and Simpson does it well -- so well that I was not distracted in the least by the point of view and thus fully got to love and hate the story.
It's dark. The American women are not portrayed in a flattering light. I sided with the nannies, which was fine until I realized that Lola was, in fact, ignoring her own life in favor of someone else's, and that made me angry with her -- and then happy to see that she, too, was a complex character.
The novel appears at first glance to be about working motherhood, as both the Americans and the foreign nannies who care for their children make choices about with whom they will spend their time and energy, how they will earn their money.
By the end of the book, I felt it was really a story of on whom should one bestow her love.
As a full-time working mother who has always used American institutionalized daycare and neighborhood sitters, I can't relate to the nanny/employer relationship. I never felt threatened as a mother by my childcare, because it was always somewhere else that I took my daughter -- not my home, not my world. Nobody else ever sang my daughter to sleep, took her to the zoo, stood in as a parent. Simpson draws those relationships as a mix of affection and power differentials, with Lola judging Judith for having a sexual relationship with a new man and calling her room unholy and Judith deciding, once Lola has returned to the Phillipines, to take away the cell phone link between Lola and Laurita because it's best for the child -- at least in her opinion. As a reader I was angry for Lola when this happened, then as a mother I was sympathetic to Judith -- she didn't handle it well, but ultimately, what was this strange crossing of boundaries between employee and charge? What would I do if I thought my daughter loved her nanny better than me? And why didn't Lola feel that way about her own children?
My Hollywood is a huge, dark book of questions for the working mother. I identified most strongly with the passage in which Claire's symphony is reviewed badly and she compares her creative work to a gift no one asked for. I'm in a place creatively where I'm working on a piece I'm not sure anyone wants and yet I still feel compelled to write it -- I cried after reading that sentence, bookmarked it with which to torture myself later. Simpson's ability to claw open Claire's soft underbelly is impressive, and it makes me hate Claire while at the same time seeing in her what I'm afraid I could become. All three women -- Claire, Judith and Lola -- all seem to have wasted a great deal of time. It's frustrating and eye-opening and worth examining.
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